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Dec. 2nd, 2016

I feel like a bit of an "aftermath".

I used to be very ebullient, super-confident, outgoing, vivacious, sexy, sociable and pretty much "out there" and up for anything.

Now I am constantly tired, feel stressed, unsexy, semi-sociable, not sensual, not fetishy and anxious. I doubt myself and others. I am hedgy and afraid.

Rocket science, psychology or even a PVC nursey outfit not needed to work out why.

However, I am responsible for myself. Sure, it would be great if the person who caused the damage were to repair it. Of course. That would be an ideal situation. But he's battling his own demons, and they are worse than mine. Mine are temporary and situational.

Now I just have to find cunning ways of getting back to the old me. It may take some time, it took 10 years to alter me. But in time, although how much time, I don't know, I'll regain my mojo and be back in the game. Because I want to be in the game.

I refuse to be anybody's victim.

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