Last night I felt incredibly down. I did farewell notes for my rents and dort. I was thinking of hanging around till after Christmas and then just going away.

I'm still feeling horrible this morning. I'll go through the motions of doing what I have to do.

Rod is clearing the big bedroom because he believes it's the adult thing to do. A more adult thing would have been not to deliberately turn up at an event you know your ex is at. But Rod is Rod. I wonder now how much he may have pulled this sort of shit on Janice and how I may have unwittingly played a part in that.

Let's get on with crap and see what today brings.