I'm actually ashamed of the way that I've been played. I always thought it would get better and that love would win the day, but it always got worse. I was just so, so stupid.

I do have my weak moments, but I received sterling advice from somebody I admire greatly a while ago. And when I feel wobbly, I read this.

You are very firmly wedged between the rock and a place that doesn't give.

My worry for you is that you will slip. Once again. back into the relationship via rampant sex and resultant ecstasy and vacuous promises.

A relationship with outstanding highs, but mariana trench lows.

I hope that you stick with this resolve. Like a summer BBQ, it's becoming an annual event.

Look after yourself darling.