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Mar. 13th, 2017

I know most of the time others view me as outgoing, ebullient, vivacious and confident, and for the most part, I'm just that. So some folk will be surprised how nervy and anxious I get prior to either doing a pro domme session or House Mistressing at a club. After all these years, I still get the fetish equivalent of stage fright, whatever that may actually be. I am genuinely very anxious. It's not like I don't know what I'm doing, I just feel like I'm not going to be good enough, and that I'm too ordinary.

It always goes well, I've not had any disasters yet, and people keep coming back, so I must be pretty OK. But the anxiety never goes!

I had a few plays at Twisted on Sunday, and all good. Plus it was a delight to bump into some old friends, Mark, Ian and a few people I didn't realise would be there. I've had lots of really positive written feedback this morning, which is absolutely lovely. I'm really glad we went, although, as usual, things didn't turn out as planned.

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latex_mole
Mar. 13th, 2017 12:49 pm (UTC)
All power to you Paula.

Feel the same way too.

M x.
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